Well, I caved. I've had so much going through my head the past few weeks and I've been wanting to get it all down, so I've decided to get on the blog band wagon. I never saw myself blogging, but here I am, so we'll see if I can keep it up. This really is more for myself, but if it amuses others or gives them another reason to waste time, so be it.
For those of you that have recieved an email from me at any point, you know that I can be extremely verbose, so be prepared for some long entries. That's just how I am. I definitely express myself infinitely better (at least in my opinion) on paper - or, in this case, in type - than in speech.
So, for an appropriate first blog, here is what I've been learning about myself recently:
1. My favorite flavoring (not actual fruit, mind you) is raspberry. My favorite fruit is pineapple. I hate artificial pineapple flavoring and I'm not especially fond of canned pineapple, but I could devour a whole fresh pineapple (minus the core and prickly stuff). I'm not kidding. These are important things to know about yourself.
2. Probably my biggest character flaw is that I let people walk all over me/use me. I tend to give and give without caring if I'm getting anything in return. I guess the second sentence makes it sound like a good thing, but it can be a real problem. The best part is that in the end, I'm really the only one that gets hurt, so I guess there could be worse character flaws. I'm sure I have more, but that's one that seems to come up a lot.
3. I have gradually come to the realization that I want and need God to be a daily part of my life. Before I just relied on prayer when I was having a tough time, but I know that making God and religion something that I think about every day, so that my spirituality can grow, will make me a better person. This is a huge step for me. All through college I've sorta been on the fence about religion - just going to whatever church my friends were going to, "doing" religion half-heartedly. I want that to change. Any help, support, prayer, etc. in that area is much appreciated.
4. I am a very emotional person. I generally share the mood of whatever person I'm around and I can change emotions in the blink of an eye. This might make me a little hard to figure out sometimes, but I think it also makes me a very sympathetic friend. Ironically, I'm a rock during movies. It has to be a REALLY touching story to get me to cry. Go figure.
5. I conform to other people's personalities. I have always wondered why I don't have some trait, some word, some way of talking that others pick up on, and I think it's because in a way, I'm a mixture of all of my friends. I have different voices for all of my friends on the phone, and am very easily persuaded to change my likes and dislikes depending on the convictions of someone that I spend a lot of time with. I used to get annoyed that I am this way and wanted to develop my own personality and my own likes and dislikes. Now I'm getting to figure out who I am more and I think that this certain trait makes me a very easy person to get along with.
6. God has blessed me with amazing friends. I am most definitely in my right place and am loving every conversation, every shared time with each person that is special in my life.
7. 7 is a complete number, so I just had to add one more. I am scared to death and at the same time extremely excited about the future. These next few weeks decide where I will be living next year and what my career in music will be like, and yet I feel calm and ready for each audition. That is a blessing in itself. If you made it to the end of this, wow you really have a lot of time on your hands, don't you? Welcome to what goes on inside my mind :)
